I have been pondering what to tell you here for a while now. You asked me this question about a month ago and I’ve gone over it and over it trying to figure out what exactly I can say that would both encourage you and help you in your path. The thing is, while I can see submissive tendencies that I’ve always had now, I had no idea I would not only enjoy being submissive, but that I would crave it desperately until years later.
The only thing I can really tell you is to do research. Not just on what exactly it means to serve but on what you want out of that kind of a relationship. Some girls are pain sluts, others are 1950′s versions of kinky, still others think serving is just sex whenever he wants it. I’m sure you have your own definition of what it means to serve someone and what you’re looking for in a Dom, but it never hurts to keep looking, keep researching.
With each relationship you step into make sure there are clear guidelines. Write out the contract between you and your Dom (if you’re seeking for one). Remember that trust and communication are key in any relationship, especially D/s and M/s relationships!
Also, expect your desires and needs to change. Time has a way of doing that. Even if you think you’ll never change, you do. (Geeze now I sound like a bad PSA) My point is that you’re 18. You don’t need to settle down and find “the one” just yet. Have fun, figure out who you are and what exactly it is you’re looking for and date accordingly. Make sure YOU know where you draw the line and make it clear to anyone you choose to submit to. It won’t start out as M/s (or at least in my opinion it shouldn’t immediately start out as M/s) right off the bat. That’s something that will take time to find.
As I said at the beginning of this post, it took me years to realize I was even submissive, let alone admit it! I thought Dominance was what I was geared for… I pushed and shoved and fought back whenever ANYONE tried to dominate me in any fashion…. and yet years later, here I am, 24/7 slave. Funny how things turn out.
And because I am a mother myself I have to add “Please just be careful.”
But also, have fun. And when relationships end, walk away from it thinking about what this relationship taught you and how you’re going to apply that to the next one.
Hope that helps a bit,